Amorous Eyes

T-Girl Extraordinaire

Past therapy.

When I started seeing my therapist, one of the first things he asked for was copies of all files of therapists I’ve seen in the past 2-3 years. I could not remember but he said the ‘log’ of the huisarts said I had seen a therapist twice in the past few years.

So I make the necessary calls and I get a lady that asks me a bunch of questions. I Had never been there, I was in the log for an initial meeting but it never came to that. I asked if I could have that in writing, which she thought was odd but she sent me a letter anyway. At least I’d have this to show my therapist. I was pretty worried about all this too, because I have no idea what past issues may cause trouble later when I try to get my green light from the Amsterdam VU.

Well at least it was nothing to worry about, right? Well flash forward a bit and I suddenly get a call from some hospital telling me I have a file lying there for me to pick up. Uh… What? See, I also called another place but when I asked for my file they were looking and could not find anything. So I thought that was that. So weeks later they call me to say they found it. Crap! Now I’m worried again. Well I just gotta remember it’s perfectly normal for T-girls to have ‘social problems’ in their past. Trouble to adjust, make friends, go out, and all that.

I asked if the could send it but they really want to see me so I have to pick it up in a few weeks (earliest they could make it) with I think whoever was my guy there I guess. If this is the one I remember I should not worry about it too much since it was just a one time meeting with a therapist that really didn’t know what to do with me. My mom was there too at the time and she agreed that it was best not to go there again.

It’ll be fun showing up as Julie having to pick up a private file for ‘another guy’. :P

Posted on September 28, 2008 Leave a comment

I’m on my way from misery to happiness today

I saw my therapist again today, the appointment was at noon but I made it in time, thank God. The darn bus takes so long it’s kinda annoying. Travel by bus to Haarlem: 45 minutes, then take the train to Amsterdam: 15 minutes, then walk over there, add another 30 minutes. Add in waiting time ‘n stuff and I’m en route for quite a bit on those days. Ugh, I wish we had a working train station here. Better yet, I wish we had a car.

Anyway, he says I’m well on my way and doing good. I’m making good progress and show that I am (and getting) much more comfortable in my new role. There’s still plenty of things to do of course. I’m trying to find excuses to go out and be in social situations. The trouble for the past few weeks though, has been that I’ve been horribly sick, I’m only now finally truly recovering.

For a while now my wife and I have been wanting to go out for the weekly family lunch. It’s when a few of my aunts ‘n stuff get together at a local place to eat and catch up. We’ve been meaning to go but we’ve been swamped with appointments, so we’ve been almost consistently out. I do hope we get to go soon though.

Posted on September 18, 2008 Leave a comment

Yesterday’s therapy

Yesterday’s therapy went very well. It was all very positive and he even complimented me. :) I have to keep working on my life’ resume; good news is that he doesn’t mind if it turns out to be a book, he’ll read it regardless.

We talked about a variety of topics, including a little about voice training, which is something I really need to work on. I’ll have to see if I can find a speech therapist nearby that I can go to.

Didn’t get a chance to shop as timing was awkward an stores were closing so at least I didn’t spent a bunch of monies this time. :P

Posted on September 6, 2008 Leave a comment

A few updates.

Tomorrow is my next appointment with my therapist, I have to be there at 3PM. He gave me some ‘homework’ last time, like he wanted me to write up my life’s resume. Well start it anyway, didn’t have to finish it yet, but damn, that kept me busy. I’m terrible with dates and my memory is just horrible so it’s not easy for me to write down things and figure out where they fit chronologically in my life.

Since I’ve gone full time I’ve had to face some odd things at times. Like the neighbor coming by with hs girlfriend at odd hours and going to my kid’s school yearly opening with approximately 700 other people, all kids and parents. Tough but I made it without a scar. :P

Life’s been rough in our home for a while financially speaking because we had been living on a single income for a few months and that wasn’t even enough to pay the bills so we started to dwindle deep into the red. We are back at two incomes now though so we should be able to get out of debt again eventually.

I have also been looking at possible educations that I can do, I found one a while ago but it wasn’t available yet, it just said “coming soon”. Well I got an email the other day that they finally started it so I’m gonna go apply. It’s an 18 month course for cosmetologist. It’s not the cheapest education around but I think it’ll be good for me, and it’s also a surefire way to get a job in the field later on.

Posted on September 4, 2008 Leave a comment