Last night I dreamt I was getting married. We were doing all kinds of things to get me ready for the big day. Hair, nails, jewelry, etc. Then we drove off to one of my family member’s place to get me into my dress and I guess do the wedding there. I know I was supposed to walk down the stairs with my pretty white dress on, because I saw it. Weird huh? No clue who I was gonna marry though. :P
Merry XMAS everyone! :)
Last friday, on my wife’s birthday, I had my last therapy session of the year. An awkward day but it was already postponed before due to my wife’s surgical recovery. She was busy herself that day, she had an appointment to pick up her books for her Dutch integration course she’s about to start next year and she went shopping with the aunts afterward. :)
In my therapy session we discussed many things and made a ‘road map’ for the following few months that I want to try and start or accomplish. It’s not a very extensive list by any means, just mainly stuff I’ve been putting off due to other circumstances and I need to get started on those. So that’s my current homework.
Upon entering he also complimented me on my nails. :D Which is always nice. Since it had been a while I told him about all the stuff I’ve been up to and how my schedule is going. So I told him I was doing good with that overall though one particular week was not so great and I was a bit depressed during that time as well. I just need to spend some more time on myself, is all.
Overall things were good and I strolled around Amsterdam for a bit afterward. Didn’t really buy anything apart from silver heart shaped earrings and necklace. I was lacking those. :D (Yes, I know I’m an addict). I played with my new phone a lot that we picked up the day before. It’s a Samsung Omnia and it is awesome as you can read on my other blog. :)
The sunday before last when my dad was here, as he is every week, we decided to go eat at the Subway in Leiden for a change. We usually go to like the Plaza or something and wind up eating fast food; fried stuff. I’m really trying to cut that down to like a once a week thing, or less.
So anyway, I got the awesome parmesan oregano bread, full size, toasted, with cheese, chicken teriyaki and lettuce. No oils or sauces, I don’t really like any. It was really good. So good, in fact, that after I ate a whole one of those I got another half one shortly after. Oooh, and Mt. Dew too! :)
Afterward we strolled around the city for a while, not all stores were open but most of the major ones were. We went to the V&D first, as the kid wanted to look for some socks and Sha needed a sports bra for her then upcoming surgery, from which she has just been released from the hospital!
Then on another floor we looked at some (cheap) jewelry (from SIX) and I ‘snatched’ a few things I needed. I finally found a good bracelet; a gold chain with black strap embedded inside of it. Sha handed me another one later that was silvery white. I always have trouble looking for some as I have very small arms/wrists. :)
I also found black and red earrings; dangly ones that I think will go well with a few of my shirts. A purple Y shaped necklace, because I have a lot of purple shirts ‘n stuff, and also a purple flowery bracelet.
Prices from left to right: €4,95 – €6,95 – €3,95 – €6,95 – €4,95
Now I’m still looking for a black or black/red necklace and bracelet, purple earrings and bracelet, a white necklace and earrings, and.. well.. I just like having lots of jewelry. :) Oh and I’m still looking for a small and thin gold watch. I’ve seen a few but I’m still looking.
Dad payed for my jewelry, for which I am ever so grateful, but the shopping spree wasn’t over yet.. We went into a shoe store where we all looked at high boots. I’ve been looking for some for a while now, I have thin legs but I like tight boots so it’s tough sometimes.
In the end all three of us found new boots and again dad was feeling really generous today and payed for all of them. That must’ve hurt his wallet a little. They are really awesome boots though! A perfect fit! :)
I’m still doing my homework that my therapist gave me. Which is writing down my eating and sleeping schedule and trying to fix it. It has always been all over the place. I ate when I was hungry and slept when I was tired. Though usually I just stayed awake until my body just collapsed out of exhaustion.
This in turn all lead to, like, me being asleep at daytime when I’m supposed to be out for an appointment, being awake in the middle of the night just staring at my computer screen, and I was very prone to ‘sugar crashes’ which hit me often like half an hour or so after I ate. My body would just shutdown and force me to sleep. I didn’t eat very well, and when I did it was mainly fast food or other sugary stuffs so all this had to change, and soon.
I’ve done that for many years and it’s hard breaking that but I’m making good progress. I mainly sleep between midnight and 7am-8am now and have a healthy fruit drinky thing (Vie) when I wake up, then I have lunch at like, lunchtime (gasp!), then dinner around 6pm. It almost sounds normal! :P
Anyway, I’m trying to keep this up which is going a lot easier than I thought it would and I find myself with a lot more time during the day. the added benefit of knowing exactly which hours I’m available (read: awake) helps too. :P
Here finally is the promised picture of the jewelry I bought the other day. :P
Yes, it’s late but I’ve been incredibly busy. More actual photos of yours truly coming up soonish.
I mainly wear the heart-shaped earrings, I like them a lot. They go well with the necklace too, which I wear, like, all the time. :) The long dangly ones are more occasionally worn and the studs (which are the ones that came with the necklace) I wear at night.
Today I was supposed to go to Hoofddorp and pick up that old old file of mine. So I made a call this morning to verify my appointment as it had changed a few times and I wanted to be sure I wasn’t gonna show up late.
Of course, then the lady informs me there’s no appointment made for today, in fact, the guy I’m supposed to see has no appointments for today at all! None. Geeeez.
So now I had to reschedule AGAIN and hope they get it right this time. It’s set for Novemeber 20th, so it’s a few weeks away. :/
Oh well, it’s not like it was superimportant but it is still something that has to be done. I’d like to get it over with.
- PS –
Yes, I know I promised more pictures but I’ve been ill (I think it was a small virus), but I’m better now, I’ll try ‘n post some pics before the weekend. :)
Had another therapy session today, a late one at like 4pm. I managed to get there early. :P Talked about lots of stuff, like my ‘schedule’ I don’t really have. :/ I gotta start working on fixing that. He gave me homework again too, lol.
Anyway, we spent a good while talking as I was a bit early. I left at 5pm and decided to go shop around a bit. Amsterdam has a ton of neat stores, and you can be sure that in at least half of ‘m there’ll be a sale going on. I was running low on certain make-up so I bought a bunch of stuff: High Volume Waterproof Mascara, liquid eyeliner, lipstick, gloss, nail-polish, etc.. Almost all Maybelline brand and one Rimmel, which got me a dangly thingee for my phone. Too bad it doesn’t have hole to put it on so I gave it to Sha. :P
As I am seriously lacking on proper jewelry to wear I figured I’d look for some of that too. I’m really fond of gold (colored, unless I can afford it) with sparlies! I managed to find 2 sets of earrings, a very long dangly one and a pair of heart shaped studs. All with lots of sparlies of course. Also got myself a necklace, similar to the one I’ve been wearing but in gold. This also has a heart hanging on it, I think it’ll go well with those studs I just got. The necklace also came with 2 small studs, kinda neat. Oh! And I got another pair of earrings, which are kinda heavy, I’ll have to see if I can make some pics tomorrow.
This was all pretty cheap and I got them from various stores, like Nana and Tovli. I checked out Claire’s but didn’t find anything I liked really. I still want my ears pierced again, above my current holes. That way I can wear both studs and danglers at the same time. Or just 2 pairs of studs when I feel lazy. :P
I’ve also been looking for a good pair of low boots for a while now, but I can’t seem to find any that I like (and are affordable), so I didn’t succeed in that department. I did pas a store which had a huge sale going on, all shirts that were on the big table were only 1,99 EURO!! I grabbed a few that seemed good, I figured if they’re too big for me Lynda can wear ‘m. Some of them are really… unusual. Almost 80′s style with zippers and safety pins. They’re kewl tho. :)
That’s it for today, oh except for to say that I went out today with a different foundation. I normally use the Superstay Silky liquid foundation from Maybelline, but I’ve been experimenting with the L’Oreal ‘true match’ liquid one. While it works it certainly does.not.last. At least it was dark by that time. :P Wasn’t a total disaster mind you, but certainly not something that’ll last the day. The Maybelline one lasts for 16 hours. Yet, I do have my eye on another foundation I wanna try. It’s a liquid-creme, also from Maybelline. Maybe I’ll have more luck with that one.
Ok, really done now, lol. TTYL!
- Julie
Posted in: Clothing, Make Up, & Jewelry, Miscellaneous, My Transition 
Tags: clothing, earrings, foundation, jewelry, makeup, Maybelline, necklace, shirts, shopping, therapyWhen I started seeing my therapist, one of the first things he asked for was copies of all files of therapists I’ve seen in the past 2-3 years. I could not remember but he said the ‘log’ of the huisarts said I had seen a therapist twice in the past few years.
So I make the necessary calls and I get a lady that asks me a bunch of questions. I Had never been there, I was in the log for an initial meeting but it never came to that. I asked if I could have that in writing, which she thought was odd but she sent me a letter anyway. At least I’d have this to show my therapist. I was pretty worried about all this too, because I have no idea what past issues may cause trouble later when I try to get my green light from the Amsterdam VU.
Well at least it was nothing to worry about, right? Well flash forward a bit and I suddenly get a call from some hospital telling me I have a file lying there for me to pick up. Uh… What? See, I also called another place but when I asked for my file they were looking and could not find anything. So I thought that was that. So weeks later they call me to say they found it. Crap! Now I’m worried again. Well I just gotta remember it’s perfectly normal for T-girls to have ‘social problems’ in their past. Trouble to adjust, make friends, go out, and all that.
I asked if the could send it but they really want to see me so I have to pick it up in a few weeks (earliest they could make it) with I think whoever was my guy there I guess. If this is the one I remember I should not worry about it too much since it was just a one time meeting with a therapist that really didn’t know what to do with me. My mom was there too at the time and she agreed that it was best not to go there again.
It’ll be fun showing up as Julie having to pick up a private file for ‘another guy’. :P
I saw my therapist again today, the appointment was at noon but I made it in time, thank God. The darn bus takes so long it’s kinda annoying. Travel by bus to Haarlem: 45 minutes, then take the train to Amsterdam: 15 minutes, then walk over there, add another 30 minutes. Add in waiting time ‘n stuff and I’m en route for quite a bit on those days. Ugh, I wish we had a working train station here. Better yet, I wish we had a car.
Anyway, he says I’m well on my way and doing good. I’m making good progress and show that I am (and getting) much more comfortable in my new role. There’s still plenty of things to do of course. I’m trying to find excuses to go out and be in social situations. The trouble for the past few weeks though, has been that I’ve been horribly sick, I’m only now finally truly recovering.
For a while now my wife and I have been wanting to go out for the weekly family lunch. It’s when a few of my aunts ‘n stuff get together at a local place to eat and catch up. We’ve been meaning to go but we’ve been swamped with appointments, so we’ve been almost consistently out. I do hope we get to go soon though.
Yesterday’s therapy went very well. It was all very positive and he even complimented me. :) I have to keep working on my life’ resume; good news is that he doesn’t mind if it turns out to be a book, he’ll read it regardless.
We talked about a variety of topics, including a little about voice training, which is something I really need to work on. I’ll have to see if I can find a speech therapist nearby that I can go to.
Didn’t get a chance to shop as timing was awkward an stores were closing so at least I didn’t spent a bunch of monies this time. :P